3 Lessons A Beloved Ex-Idol Taught Me

Today is the 4 year anniversary of the release of the single, "Age of Future" by G=AGE so I thought now would be as good a time as any to write this post. For anyone who's known me for a while you'd know that G=AGE (before they disbanded) were my all-time favourite Jpop boy group, and in particular I was a big fan of the member Kazama Roi.

Just a note, I have been in contact with Roi recently and he told me that though he still works as a model he wants to move on from his past as an idol and would rather his new friends didn't know about it. For this reason, I will refer to him as Roi (the stage name he used in G=AGE) in this blog post rather than his real name. Although, I do believe he still models under his real name so it's not a secret in case anyone wants to try and find his stuff. But anyway with that, let's get sappy. 


1. It's okay to have a laugh and be silly.


Roi has always been very silly and playful and frankly quite chaotic. He's loud and has a bit of a weird sense of humour. Though he appeared to tone this down slightly when he was an idol (he was often described by fans as very quiet and polite) he was known for joking around and occasionally making silly faces at the camera. Roi came into my life at a time when I couldn't see much humour in anything. I was depressed, anxious, and felt hopeless about the future but seeing or hearing about his silly antics would always cause me to at least crack a smile. Now I'm probably a little bit too silly for my own good a lot of the time!

2. When you love someone, you have to let them go. 


When G=AGE disbanded, for a long time Roi was the only member to disappear completely. He seemed to be absent from the entertainment industry and he didn't have any public social media accounts. Even after he eventually made a public Twitter account, there would be long periods of time where he would just drop off the radar again, probably because he was unsure about whether he really wanted to continue his career as an idol or not. Though my mental health was a lot better by this point I missed him terribly. I just wanted to see him again, even just one of his derpy selfies would do. Eventually though, I had to come to accept that Roi didn't want to be in the public eye anymore and that was okay. That was his decision to make and just because I had been his fan for such a long time didn't mean that I was entitled to him or he owed me anything. 

3. An idol can be your soulmate? Huh?


I know how weird that sounds but hear me out, haha. If you're new to the spiritual concept of soulmates, allow me to explain. A soulmate doesn't necessarily have to be a romantic partner (after all I'm in a happy relationship and Roi is quite a bit younger than me, haha); it can also be a friend, a family member, or just anyone that comes into your life for a significant reason even if it's only for a short time. If you believe in past lives, it's thought that soulmates are people who were with us in previous incarnations. The first time I saw Roi, I had a massive sense of recognition, like I'd met him somewhere before and I still feel this to this day. Even if I never see Roi again for as long as I live, I know that he came into my life for an important reason and that was to help me grow and teach me these lessons. He did so much for me whether he realizes or not so now the least I can do for him in return is to keep doing my best to improve and achieve everything I want to achieve. He's inspired me to try my best with my music, dance, Japanese, and just my well-being in general.


With that, I will end this blog post with a thank you to Roi-Roi, Roi-pyon, Little Prince, or whatever other bizarre nicknames I came up with for him.

風間ロイくんに、私の心の中から、本当に本当にありがとうございました!

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